Steven歌词-Jake Miller
Steven
Jake Miller
The Road Less Traveled - EP
Yeah look
Let me tell you about
A kid named Steven
He's slowly running out
Of things to believe in
Every couple of months
His mom leaves him
For no good reason
His step-dad beats him
Not too many friends
Only ever had a few of them
But recently they don't want
Anything to do with him
Always eating lunch
In the bathroom stall
He just wants to feel normal
And be cool again yeah
Always feeling like the outcast
He's been going crazy
Ever since his dad passed
He needs guidance
And advice but instead
He only has breakdowns
And flashbacks of the car crash uh
It's been getting harder everyday
If he was still around
Everything would be ok
Cuz his dad was always the light
At the end of the tunnel
But now that same damn tunnel
Is looking dark and grey
He keeps quiet in the back of the class
And when the bell rings
Steven hurries home fast
Scared to death the other kids
Will kick his a** on the long walk home
Cuz its happened in the past so
He's getting used to
The black eyes and fat lips
But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists
Wishin' he could walk right up to them
And show them the scars
And say look you're the reason
That I've done this
Maybe they would finally understand
And go back to how it was before it all began
But he's just a little different
So they taunt him and they beat him
Yeah it's all just fun and games
They don't give a damn yeah
His older brother ain't around
In and out of jail
Hanging with the wrong crowd
He's been doing coke smoking w**d
Getting drunk all his life he's a shame
No he's not too proud
Now his habits are rubbing off
On his little bro yeah
But guess what
Little did he know
That everytime he did a line
Everytime he lit a joint
Everytime he took a shot
He was sippin mode
So Steven's sitting in his room
Getting high now
Doors locked music up
With his lights out
He just takes another tote
Til his room fills with smoke
5-6-7 hours til he knocks out
Now he started stealing pills from his mom
8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
And maybe for a moment
All his problems seem to fade
But the high fades too after not too long
And that's when it really sinks in
And that's when it hits him
That these god damn *** won't fix him
Curled up on the floor
Can't take it anymore
Now he's talking to God
Cuz he's the only one that gets him
On his knees looking up
Can't stop crying
"God I know we haven't talked in a long time
But this time I really need you
Please God help me say something
Just give me a sign
Because now I'm falling apart and
I don't think that I can do it
Please God give me the strength
To pull through it Tell me
Should I give up
I could end it all right now
I just don't know
If I'm brave enough to do it
Cuz there's gotta
Be a better way than suicide
Try to wait it out
Give it time you'll be fine
But it's been so long
And I still haven't been able to get rid
Of all the thoughts that I feel inside
So sick so angry so mad
And to top it off no one even knows that"
That's when he stood up
Wiped his tears
Walked over to his desk
And got a pen and a notepad
He just couldn't see it getting any better
So on a cold dark night in December
Steven knew exactly
What he had to do
But first he sat down
And wrote a couple letters
One to his step-dad
One to his mother
Couple to the kids at school
One to his brother
Bringing them the pain
That they once brought him
Tear drops on the paper one after another
Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty
Cuz I'm broken now
And you can't heal me
And now you're all an accompliss in murder
Each and every one of you
Has chipped in to kill me
So the reason that
I'm writing you this evening
Is to say goodbye
And to tell you that I'm leaving
But don't hold your breath
Cuz I ain't never coming back
Sincerely yours Steven
